beautiful memories

2009-10-20T18:15:00.002+08:00

And it is the end of acting.. I had fun watching the rest performing only to be splashed by red wine at the end of the performance - darn! luckily I am not wearing Ys's blazer - if not..... Had great fun - thanks Fiona for video-ing our performance =) at least a form of keepsake which I could show to my kids in the future.. =P

Moving out of Hampden House.. Moving over with the sisters to Wembly where we will be neighbour with kor and housemates with nettnett.. It will be pretty different and will be exciting if kor manages to buy GUITAR HERO! (time to pyscho him into doing that).. 4 crazy girls and 1 crazy guy living in close proximity.. We will be closer to Subi, Northbridge and Leederville yet further away from Uni, Broadway, Kongs, IGA and familiar grounds. kinda not looking forward for certain personal reasons yet feeling the excitment in my heart. We shall see how it goes next sem then..

Sch's ending soon.. crazy packing and settling the house before going home.. looking forward! =)

2009-10-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

I've heard a tale that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves.
How many times has he broken that promise?
It has never been done
Well I never climbed the highest mountain,
but I walked the hill of calvary

And just to be with you I'll do anything,
there's no price I would not pay, no
Just to be with you I will give everything.
I would give my life away.
Yeaaaa

I've heard it said that a man would swim an ocean
Just to be with the one he loves.
But all of those dreams are an empty emotion
It can never be done.
Well I never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea

And just to be with you I'll do anything,
there's no price I would not pay, no
and just to be with you I would give everything.
I would give my life away.
Yeaaaa

And I know that you don't understand the fullness of my love
How I died upon the Cross for your sin
And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you
And I promise I would do it all again

Just to be with you I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay, no
Just to be with you I gave everything
Yes I gave my life away.
Yeaaaaa

Just to be with you
Oh, just to be with you (3x)

To the Mission Field I will go and do everything I can for You. To the Kids, I will give my all for them and do Your Will. Because for me, You have given Your all... =)

2009-10-09T15:23:00.002+08:00

This caught my eyes - it was my feelings then but we grow up. Both of us will grow up and out of it.....

The silent way people drift apart, the way the secret smiles fade. The fights end in crying with no one to hold you. the way your world seems to collapse, but you know this isn’t the way its supposed to be.

YELLING AT HIM TO FIX IT. even though you know you did more damage than he did.

After the break up, the feeling of betray as you look at another guy. Knowing you shouldn’t be looking, you don’t belong to them. knowing he still doesn’t look at anyone but you.

When you hang out, the way his eyes watch yours,the way they say sorry, the way you know he wants to kiss you and make all the pain go away. Trying your hardest not to cry because he refuses to become a couple together.

Being completely in love with him. and him with you.

Being best friends.

Him thinking he is not good enough, so he wants you to find someone that is.

You refusing to find someone else because you want him.

The complications. The tears. The heartache.

The feeling of love through it all.

And just sometimes....

And so i wonder if you do still think about me.
And so i wonder if you do still love me inside somewhere.
And so i wonder if there will ever be another chance for us to tie the knot and never let go.
And so i wonder.
And so i wonder.

I never got the chance to say thank you. I know I'll never be given the chance to apologize even though I've apologized millions of times (i assure you i can apologize a million more just for you. let me apologize. I don't want to carry this burden anymore). i don't think i'll ever have the chance to do so. wherever you are. i hope sooner or later maybe someday,everything will be okay again.

2009-09-30T17:45:00.004+08:00

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

sick with the irritating running nose and aching body kinda sick.. =(

thanks for the heartfelt concern and love.

..

2009-09-24T13:38:00.001+08:00

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding

You are my wonderwall..

~~~ Oasis

The song repeatedly playing in my head..

2009-09-20T14:10:00.001+08:00

There are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark… their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless.

2009-09-14T11:26:00.002+08:00

No more memories, no more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years
Help me say 'Goodbye'

2009-09-14T00:13:00.002+08:00

One week of slacking - of celebrating my bday and having the most fun night with the dears, playing wii games till the wee hours of the day (thanks neighbours for the electricity, the food, the drinks and the company), going to swan valley with the cellies, sleeping late and waking up late and sleeping in the whole day with squashiee, watching 'the ultimatum' but still at episode 10 ('slowpoke'), eating a lot of random stuffs etc etc etc etc.. 1 day before sch starts and I realise - shit, I have assignment due when sch reopen.. shitshitshitshit.. no more slacko days.. time to work hard..

Awesome sermon today - concerning problems in life - "don't nurse it, don't curse it, don't rehearse it.. but immerse it then reverse it".. =) You have not only answered my question but have already done it on me.. I am gonna move on and live the Way You want me to..

2009-09-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

hi stranger, how are u?

2009-09-09T11:50:00.002+08:00

thanks my beloved ophe, my darling neighbours - ys and zy, my nett-nett, my friends who remembered my bday, my sis for sending me this beautiful wallet from singapore (i know what u want me to do), my family for calling me and wishing me and special thanks to kor who made this day possible and unforgettable.. =) I am officially 22 and getting older.. =(

2009-09-02T11:42:00.006+08:00

Injuries during performance class..

1) Backache - i am getting weaker - can't even carry people without hurting myself
2) blue-black on both knees - and now I can't kneel anymore

3) woke up with aches all over my body - the class was really intensive

at least now it is aching somewhere else.

2009-09-01T09:30:00.002+08:00

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
         
It’s the climb

keep moving
keep your faith

=)

~~~~~~Just get back up when it knocks you down~~~~~~

2009-08-30T17:09:00.002+08:00

Dim Sum - still loving the awesome liu sha bao.. made a horrid scene, had a good talk, upset with myself, became crazy with rui, called xl mummy, xiang scored a hundred for maths, had much encourgement talks, vegetarian dinner, drove home alone, safe and sound.

I just realised, whatever that happened, I asked for it.. oh wells.

2009-08-28T09:32:00.002+08:00

'sometimes goodbye though it hurts in our hearts is the only way for destiny'.

Goodbye to you....

sometimes it takes something to break to realise the importance of a person. but sometimes it takes something to break to realise the importance of people around you. thanks people for supporting me, for doing everything to make me better. I am better, I just need time to be myself again.. And thank You for putting these people in my life.. =)

it rained when i woke up this morning, but for a fraction of a moment, my heart stopped raining..

2009-08-17T20:19:00.002+08:00

The Ugly Truth - not really a movie about what to do and what not to do in a relationship but I learnt something from this movie - be yourself in a relationship. There is no point faking who you are because you will never be happy.. There is no point giving in to your partner's likes and dislikes - you are only suffocating yourself in the long run. Be yourself and if your partner really love you, they will accept everything about you..

2009-08-12T11:33:00.003+08:00

Love is a sweet poison - so sweet it puts u on the cloud but it slowly kills u within - that is the painful part - u never know when u will die. oh Cupid Cupid, what have u done?

2009-08-07T15:08:00.002+08:00

I got so excited I had hiccups in class. The fiery passion, the brightness in your eyes, the temper and your one-sided views all eager to tumble out of your mouth.. I couldn't help just nodding my head to every sentence uttered. I couldn't help not being able to open my mouth except to gap.. I couldn't help the unnecessary hiccups. I hungered after every single word, every syllabus. I needed to go and see for myself - the hunger, the starvation, the need, the desperation - the life of those in 3rd world countries.

2009-08-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

to d evil: my sister's keeper.. reminds me of the times u spent comforting me and being there for me and talking to me.. makes me cry - not cos the show is sad (altho' it really is) but because I miss you lots.. =( I know u will always be my one and only keeper.

2009-07-24T23:43:00.001+08:00

I wanted to hug you so badly. The wind blew the hug away and I could only stand and stare at your retreating back.. Next time, says the brain - next time.

2009-07-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

If it is meant to be, it will be..

2009-07-19T18:51:00.007+08:00

1 month plus of holiday flew pass but I am glad to be going back to school. Can't wait seriously..

Greatest achievement of the holiday was that I drove all the way down to Margaret River without stopping at 5am in the morning. =) It is really a good experience for me to be driving when the sky is still dark and still driving when the sky lighted up and only stopped driving when the sun sets. =) My friends and sister were enjoying themselves by sleeping lots when I drove even though I set the rule to NOT sleep.. haha.. But I had my co-driver to talk to me non stop while I drove. Thanks for many deep talks and much entertainment along the way. =)

I am glad for the opportunities to catch up and bond with Daryl. I guess it is normal to drift when we are apart from each other but I am glad you never really change.. still the same old you. =) I miss the majong sessions, milkshakes sessions, pancakes, late supper, L Word (ps, i really miss watching that show with you.. feels weird to watch it myself because I will have no one to discuss it with), singing all the random radio songs etc etc..
And my sister.. I know you worry too much about me and stuffs. I really miss us talking about life early in the morning in bed. I know what I am doing and I am not shortchanging myself in anyway. I will one day I will thank you for your endless scoldings but for now, let me be childish for a while.. =0 love the time we spent travelling to Monkey Mia - the disgusting hostels, the jumping shots, the "good" food,

And the new additions to the Hampden family.. +) Presenting:

Bugsy aka Nibble Squeak
AND Baby

ps: furry animals are therapeutic.. =)

2009-05-30T20:06:00.002+08:00

Lean on me
As heavily as you can
I will try my best not to fall
But I know even if I do,
you will be there to lift me up again and again =)

If I could, I will make you smile every single day of your life.

2009-05-27T10:10:00.001+08:00

waking up next to you
hair tangled, stinky breath...
I nuzzle in your nook...
that is when I know I am loved the most.

2009-05-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

That kid who hug me using his head and that baby who refuses to let me carry yet gave me such a heart melting and salivary kiss.. Wish all hugs and kisses are that sweet and that unforgettable.

2009-05-21T08:10:00.003+08:00

If I am a anti-conformist, I shouldn't expect you to conform. So there, don't conform and I don't care.. doesn't care doesn't bother, the happiness of life..

less than 1 month and the devil is coming.. She is gonna bring me all the joy and happiness I need amidst this dreary and rainy season. oh, and my new specs too =)

2009-05-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

The question I have been waiting to be answered - I have gotten the answer. It might not be what I wanted but it is what I needed to hear.

As you speak, the song sings to me -So I’ll give you my heart and my song, in a world where so much is right but so much is wrong.

2009-05-04T12:24:00.002+08:00

J:And palm to palm is holy palmers' kiss
R:Have not saint lips, and holy palmers too?
J:Ay, pilgrim, lips that must use in prayer
R: O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do! They pray; grant thou, lest faith turn to despair

Amongst all, I want to be Juliet.
To fall deeply in love and never finding the chance to fall out of it.
To find a Romeo who knows my sonnet of love
To have someone lie still beside me - peacefully and forever..

2009-05-03T20:00:00.005+08:00

The uneasiness that starts the moment you say you are still going over to see him. The inability to put a finger to my growing uneasiness and the feeling that I have not done something important. The urgent need to talk to you and to call you. The hatred gnawing at my soul - how can you look at her and tell her you love her? How can you face her when she does nice things for you? How can you hold her hand and hold her heart when you have NO RIGHTS to? It is over sweetie. It should be over long time ago but I am glad it is over now.

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His Power
In Quietness and Trust

Thank you God, for ending this torment of hers.

2009-04-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

~~~~The Script

2009-04-19T15:26:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPLCaAu_H2U&feature=related.

the video is so touching.. and i felt an ache in my heart. suddenly, i just wan to call home and tell my daddy that i miss him a lot a lot and that i really want him to be here with me.. =(

emo day.. -(

2009-04-17T13:17:00.002+08:00

stolen time - 4 days of happiness - it drains all my energy away... =(

2009-04-06T18:31:00.003+08:00

And I miss the cycling, the breakfast, lunch and dinner, the beautiful sea, the beach, the night sky, the cats, the bath tub, the people, the life and of cos you! =( I wan to stay there when I retire.. Of course, I will get a car there - riding a bicycle everywhere is just too tiring. Oh, and get some dogs. Get the house by the beach. Eat Phad Thai everyday. Soak myself in the bathtub with scented oil and candles. Watching shows. Go to the gym. Go shooting on Sunday morning. Swim in the beach every morning. Eat whenever and whatever nonsense food that I can cook. Sleep under the stars every night. Sounds good.. haha... Sounds SUPER GOOD to ME!! I wanna go up again! And I must say, you make a difference to the place too..

missingyoulotslotslotslots!! sigh.... -(

H.E.M = the more i say it, the more pretty it sounds..

2009-04-03T15:08:00.002+08:00

I look up from the bed and there staring at me was this beautiful phrase "whenever I see me alone.. I think of us together". And I imagine you reading this every night.. ♥

Happy birthday sweetie boy! =)

♥Dongara

2009-03-21T15:38:00.002+08:00

When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is.....

So don't surrender coz' you can win in this thing called love..

I think u are very brave..

2009-03-17T12:25:00.002+08:00

not gonna think anymore.. -(

2009-03-13T22:23:00.003+08:00

It is different isn't it. It felt better though. We could breath, could think and could survive without dependency. 5 weeks. We would miss our anniversary and your birthday, but you are just a phone call away. It is that close yet that far. Do hope you enjoy yourself though..

spongebob: what do you usually do when i'm gone?
patrick: wait for you to come back.

2009-02-25T15:02:00.000+08:00

When the world says give up, Hope whispers, try it one more time.....

2009-02-24T13:30:00.001+08:00

9 Hardest Times Of Your Life
1. Being questioned when you yourself do not understand.

2. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about.

3. Trying to forget something you never will.

4. Admitting you were wrong after being so insistent that you were right.

5. Debating with yourself.

6. Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be.

7. Trying to understand when you just can’t.

8. Realizing that you’ve been tricked after you’ve given your whole heart.

9. Parting and letting go of someone you’ve loved.
how true....

2009-02-24T10:15:00.002+08:00

The weather changes suddenly - the sky seems overcast and the wind is getting stronger. So in tune with my mood. At least I am not alone..

2009-02-22T20:23:00.003+08:00

1 week. wasn't that bad. Got to drive a Lexus (my fav car brand) for 2 days b4 the owner came back. subi for grocery, burswood for outdoor movie night, church, airport to pick the owner - thank God the girls are all safe! =). Went NB for supper once at Hawker - miss the marmite chicken a lot now. Had a picnic at the grass patch near to the High Court - wine, grapes, sushi, salad - but mood spoiled by that !@#$% random guy. Watched He's just not that into you at Picaadily Cinema and had a frightening experience coming home by bus at 9pm. Went down to Margaret River for wine in the morning and drove back to Concuss for dinner. Went to Freo for Little Creature and sight seeing. Sat thru a graduation without falling asleep. Almost pierced another ear hole in the city but.... Watching an emo Japan drama and loving it. Preoccupying my brains with random thoughts. Unpacking my stuff - table's not here yet though. Met some new peeps - time to do so after being anti-social for a year. Hating the weather most of the time but happy when there is wind. Getting tanner by the hour. Talking to the devil everyday thru skype from the minute I wake up - missing her lots here - come quick come quick - and good luck, u can do it! And b4 I knew it, school is starting tmr. I am glad school is starting.

2009-02-19T10:11:00.002+08:00

Rule no 1: never make excuses for the man u like..

And I am currently stuck to the book 'He is just not that into you'.. It is educational in a way for girls. The movie is touching, emo at the same time.. make me think a lot - maybe a bit too much..

Will you make me your exception if I am the rule?

2009-02-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

Your head on my lap, burning sun, sweaty palms, sandwiched filled stomach, swishing waves, voiceless, noiseless, calm breathing, in out in out, spiderwebs, amphibious being my favourite word of the day, cute little squirrels hopping and jumping around, silly teasing, frighten moments, more spiders and webs - a day to remember. sunrise, sunset, days pass too fast for my liking. Soon, too soon.

2009-02-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

I got BURNT - in Sentosa! painful and itchy.. BUT I had fun.. 12 hrs of fun! =) going to beaches, taking picts, eating, drinking, tanning, talking, swimming, skytrain, tram, song of the sea.. enjoyed every minute, every conversation and every moment of silence. Time passes fast when we are happy and enjoying ourselves. Back to Perth this Sat.. Somehow, this time, it is gonna be really tough.. I just wish that the time could just stop when we are together and there will be no need to say goodbye, to have to be away from each other and to miss you. Sometimes I feel that it is seriously getting a bit too tiring for me to handle.. -(

sigh.. 3 weeks then, 5 weeks now, more to come in the future? dampened.

2009-02-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

'I am out of practice' was my thought when I started to panicked upon stepping into the school.. The weather was not helping - it started to storm the moment I reached the gate. Frantic parents, big and wet umbrellas, screaming and shouting teachers and students. Chaos. All hell broke loose when the kids started running out, charging at everyone. All of them look alike to me - blurred faces. I tip-toed, hoping to spot you among the mess of human faces. I remembered how I used to stand all the way at the back of all parents, confident that I could scan out your face among the crowds. Slowly, the crowds start to thin as many left when they got their kids. I panicked, wondering whether did I miss you, will you be waiting for me in the rain.. Just when my thoughts were all flying out of place, I felt your little hand, holding on to mine and I heard your voice, 'Jie jie, I am here.' I saw your cheeky smile flashing up at me and I just want to hug you tight - to thank you for searching for me when you knew I am out of practice.

2009-02-01T12:04:00.002+08:00

I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.

2009-01-30T09:58:00.002+08:00

Time to think of going back to Perth.. Wanted to go back much later but Grace babe is GRADUATING!!! congrats gurl! of cos I have to go for your graduation =) Sooo leaving on the 14th which is VDay!! haha.. oh wells, I will have to spend my Vday with Grace and family and of cos with my darling Kendricko and Chelseyko.. speaking of Kendrick - he waited up on CNY day for me to come home just to wish me a happy new year!! and i came back sooo late and he is still awake!! SWEEETT!! was webcaming them when i suddenly miss all of them.. can't wait to go back and give you a BIG BIG HUGG!! =)

14 more days b4 I leave this place.. somehow, it seems harder to leave this time.. =(

ps: The Devil is not gonna miss me for sure but I will miss you lots!!!!!!

2009-01-20T12:15:00.003+08:00

And it was over.. the excitement, the fear and the anticipation... practicing hard, trying to catch up with all their practices in just one week of rehearsals was seriously exhausting.. bowing, timing, memorising - i miss all of that though.. And the people - ever so friendly and funny. I thought it will be awkward for me to be the only guest player in the viola section since i know no one there but they made me feel so welcome and comfortable..

the viola section..
the empty concert hall minutes b4 the concert starts... the jitteriness at the back stage and the craziness that starts...

thanks for coming to watch!! =) And my family too =)
And the gifts i got from NYPSO.. beautiful stone for remembrance..

It was like a dream come true.. thinking back, I will never forget the waiting, the ticking of the clock outside our changing room and the endless laughter.. And I am so happy that you remembered me and what am I doing.. haha.. *Private joke*

2009-01-04T14:10:00.002+08:00

I am glad I listen to my heart and rushed down to the airport.. 3 weeks without you is gonna be super duper long! =( Can't wait for your return...

Let time flies..

2009-01-01T11:04:00.011+08:00

Looking back at how I spent the last few days of 2008 with the bf.. -)

At Billy Bomber's on Boxing day.. eating ribs and chicken with a fake jukebox..
Then we walked down crowded Orchard Road..

On the 30th of December, We watched YES MAN! A really funny movie.. really 'educational' cos Dz has to be a Yes Man after watching the movie which is GOOD for ME!

Then we went to Asian Civilisation Museum for the 'neither east nor west' exhibition.. Lots of posing here which is super fun!! -P

embracing the roots here..

cross dressing? hee.. Cuteeee!

embracing his roots..
trying to be like Queen Victoria..

We were hungry after walking around the whole afternoon.... SO we went on a food rampage!!
First up, IMPERIAL BAK KUT TEH!! Gary kor kor's imperial shop.. too bad he wasn't there..

Then walked around Circular Road and decided to go into this Japanese Restaurant which serves super nice Japanese Food!! We tried the Scallops topped with Cod Fish Roll.. YUMMMMYYY!!

And then the dessert..
It was so good that we decide to have our New Year Eve dinner back at this restaurant.. =)

Still Feeling a bit empty, we decide to go for our favourite Ba Chor Mee

Way to eat this mee suan - 1) Pour the whole plate of chilli with the Soy Sauce into the ba chor mee suan. 2) Mix well and serve hot!

The empty bowls! Chilli is superduper spicy and SHIOK!!

Our Satisfied expressions! BUT......
Too much Chinese, so we decided to have some fast food which Perth doesn't have - BURGER KING! YAY!! feeling full and realllyyy satisfied now! -) And we decide to call it a day..

And the next day, we went for the countdown at Marina Bay... It was a crazy night but I enjoyed myself tremendously..

Looking back at 2008, it was indeed a fulfilling year for me. It was filled with fun, laughter, lots of eating, cooking, studying, going to know Dz better, struggling together through exams, essays. I am glad to have you to share with me all my happiness and sadness, to be walking with my throughout my journey in Perth, to be at my side when I needed you.. Thanks love for being here for me no matter what and for filling my life with colours.. Lets hope that 2009 will be filled with more excitments for us! -) Loveyoulotssweetieeboy!

2008-12-28T00:17:00.003+08:00

This song hit me so hard that it brought tears to my eyes when I first heard it. I will willingly sing this song to you...

不管与你的路有多苦
我只想要拥有最后的祝福
再多的伤害我都不在乎
愿你我挣脱一切的束缚
不管与你的路有多苦
擦乾眼泪告诉自己不准哭
我不怕谁说这是个错误
只要你我坚持永不认输

2008-12-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

maybe we are just not ready yet..

2008-12-21T23:21:00.004+08:00

U said pink meant everlasting.. so i made us a love lighted with pink bulbs.. i just want u to know how much i treasure our love.. Coincidentally, 'light' was also being spoken about in service the next day.

It started with a tiny glow on a candle but within minutes, the whole hall was lighted up completely. It was indeed a reminder that God wants us to spread his candle-light to everyone around us, to share with them the warmth and love that God has provided..

The take home message today was that Christmas is the time for lights and God is the source of light in our life. He is the only one who could light up our vision, value and our passion for compassion. Thank u God for lighting the way for us, for providing warmth in times of coldness and for providing comfort in time of fear.

2008-12-15T14:15:00.002+08:00

The only gift I would accept is your heart - Queen Esther, One night with the king.

Indeed, what we want, is neither riches nor fame, but simply the knowledge that your heart is ours. So spare us the misery and the head scratching moments and let us know where we stand in your heart.

2008-12-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

i had fun with you today.. though short, it was nice - just walking down the not so crowded (thank goodness) orchard road.. attachment starts tmrw for you.. hope you will have a great time.. =)

2008-12-08T08:04:00.001+08:00

Stuck to the romance world of vampires and humans... Edward Cullen Bella Swan.. I can't wait to watch that movie..

2008-12-07T20:08:00.004+08:00

back back back to SIngapore!! had a GREAT HOLIDAY with my EVIL SIS for 2 weeks!!!! went all the way down to Esperance with her and a fun group of peeps!!! and of cos, spending time with my handsome darling above! haha.. he wishes to be a handsome boy instead of a cute boy! misses u like crazy!! sorry for always having to part with u for a few months!! my heart aches when i see how u refuse to say bye to us.. pooor ken! =(
came back and had a picnic with the some of the LHC peeps! haha.. had a real good time catching up and seeing them again..
and yes, i cut off my long hair.. now it is much shorter! =) and cooler toooooo....
and u are back today.. cant wait to meet up with u after such long time...

2008-11-22T10:21:00.002+08:00

I miss u so much that my heart ache.. I never want to say goodbye to you anymore... And did i mention how sweet u are yesterday to not to fall asleep when i drive even though u are super duper tired... thanks dz.. maybe i sometimes take u for granted, but i truly love and treasure every moment with you..

2008-11-17T21:07:00.002+08:00

Somehow, I know, I will have a massive withdrawal symptom this time...

2008-11-09T20:43:00.003+08:00

so what have i been up to?

1) trip to hillary boat harbour with Fab and Sarah! small little trip filled with random shopping, trying on sunglasses and hats and taking picts, going into souvenirs shops and ogle at tourist stuffs, going into the aquarium and reminiscing about childhood underwater world..

2) finished a book titled cemetry lake.. book filled with crime mystery and a pte detective trying to solve the mystery before it gets worst. quite a nice book to read! =)

3) jammed with dzz in my room - he-guitar and me-viola.. super duper FUN!! and we figured out the chords for a song - something inside by Jonathan Rhyes Meyer. ps: neighbour can hear us, hope we are not tooooo loud..

4) ciao italia with Susanty.. haha.. love the food there always and glad to know susanty better..

5) cook - sushi, ginger water with tangyuan, mee siam.. haha.. dzz got to eat all my cooking..

6) watch lots of random tv shows and movies..

7) sleep a lot and at random timings causing me to have insomia at night.. =(

AND I AM LOVING IT!!!! =) not really though, it gets boring after a while.. especially when dzz is super duper hardworking.. Makes me want to be hard working too.. hahaa..

ps: i caught u an orange star. hope it shines brightly for you during your exam period and guiding you thru all the obstacles you faced when u are studying.. hope this orange star brightens up your studying days!! =)

2008-11-01T13:11:00.002+08:00

happy Nov!! =)

I am done with my asssignmentttsss!! now have to wait for 18 days for my german paper!! and I AM BORED!! haha.. cant disturb dz cos he got BIG EXAM coming up and he is mugging like crazy! sooooo poor thing!!! i am happily slacking here and watching shows while he is studying hard.. sigh!! jia you jia you..

2008-10-24T16:56:00.003+08:00

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

~~~ Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily

Wild horses i wanna be liked you,
throwing caution to the wind i'll run free too.

2008-10-15T11:51:00.002+08:00

A different beach experience:

Yesterday was superly HOT and SUNNY!! had no mood to go for classes and when Mel asked whether do I want to go to the beach, I jumped immediately and agreed!! Dz had no class so I asked him to go too.. haha.. turns out, Mel and gang left earlier and we left later..

Well, in the past, I always just go to the beach and lie there and soak up the sun.. It was different with dzz. He asked me to go running with him on the beach.. haha.. It was a tiring run.. we ran for 30 mins - up slope, down slope, flat ground!!! I almost died when we ended the run!! whew!!

Then we went to the beach and into the sea!! cooling water!!! shiok shiok!! the waves were super huge and scary!! haha.. and I don't dare to go in cos I was afraid of the waves and under current (i watched too many reality shows abt the danger of undercurrent!!)..

A while later, we decide to go to the shore and dry ourselves.. haha.. it was nice lying there after a tiring run and a tiring swim! hee..

All in all, enjoyed myself!!! =) had a frozen fanta b4 we headed back to college for a well-deserved dinner and break!

2008-10-09T15:55:00.003+08:00

I got a motivational flower from sweetie squashie!! thanks babe!! lots lots! haha.. sooo sweet!!! and i love it!! =)

2008-10-08T13:09:00.003+08:00

My presentation on the autobiography. It was not as easy as I thought.. talking about the past and being asked questions about it.. I could feel myself almost tearing when I thought of the times spent but I am glad I didnt.. I saw the sympathetic looks from the people in my class, the "aww, so sad!! stop asking her so many questions!" haha.. but it is ok, I am fine.. And I am glad that my tutor likes my piece - except my tenses cos I edit so much on the storyline that I forgot about the Grammar. Whew, over at last! =)

Congrats babe! You did well tooo!! love your story a lot too!!!

A walk to forget, a road less taken - but i choose to ask, to know.. I thought I could handle it, but I guess I wasn't strong enough.. well, I have only myself to blame don't I.

2008-10-05T20:29:00.003+08:00

today i played badminton with dz at the UWA Rec center.. was rather skeptic at first cos i wasn't really a sports person and the only sport i like is running.. but well, dz likes to play badminton so i decide to go for it and it was really fun!! i learn how to surf properly and to hit the shuttle.. and it was rather tiring.. 'sashaying' across the court, running back to the center everytime and basically running all over the place... for an hr, i had a great time.. thanks dz for teaching me! =)

went with Rachel to the city yesterday to get christmas presents for the operation christmas child.. was rather fun shopping and buying toys and necessity for little boy - though we concluded that we can buy more for little girls.. hahaha... all in all, it was really fun!!

Today i prayed for you to be healed.. for God to take all your problems away and for you to be happy again.. i think only He can give you the happiness you need.. continue believing in Him and His miracles..

2008-10-02T00:15:00.003+08:00

I found a song about you.. And i wonder, how true is this song with regards to who you really are..

Arthur he does as he pleases
All of his life, he's mastered choice
Deep in his heart, he's just, he's just a boy
Living his life one day at a time
And showing himself a really good time
Laughing about the way they want him to be

Arthur's theme (Best that you can do)

And i realized, it is true to a large extend..

And then i realized, i should be writing essay instead of analyzing you.. It is pretty fun for the moment.. kk! back to work! =(

priceless

2008-09-30T11:22:00.002+08:00

We remembered different things. But i am glad i have you to remember things i have forgotten.

2008-09-27T23:03:00.004+08:00

Ciao! after soo long!! had a great time with the colours peeps! everyone look sooo pretty with different colours!!! =) had a great time eating chilli mussels, cabonara, fetta, pizzas and of course the cheesie peeps who eat cheese like there is no tomorrow! And the pictures taking, the jokes, the laughters, what can I do without you guys!! A dinner filled with God's love, who can not be full...

hungry people snatching the delicious cabonara

pretty girls with different pretty colours!!!
and the sparkles and birthday song!! (not my bday though)!

me and serene, one of the bday girls!! 17 yo only!! hahaha...

zai yong ah!! my employer! haha.. and the Lexus guy!! cant wait to sit in your lexus!! sooo classy looking!!!! oooohh!! i also want a LEXUS!!!!

2008-09-26T11:22:00.003+08:00

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears

i read them and i realised, we are not much of a
difference.. such similarity in characters..

2008-09-21T15:52:00.003+08:00

i got him into growing nat's hair.. now i am crazy over GG (as he calls it)..

and his hair is not long enough....

the food i cooked for dinner on 18/09/08.. potato with chicken, roast duck, steamed egg and rice! yummy!! =) hope u liked it...

ps: happy 365 days rachiedear!! happy for you!! =)

2008-09-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

He never said you’ll only see sunshine
He never said there’ll be no rain
He only promised us a heart full of singing
Bout the very things that once brought pain.

Give them all to Jesus...

timetostruggle...

my 21st bday

2008-09-09T10:03:00.009+08:00

my funky popcorn machine from dzz! and yes, i managed to make a batch of un-burnt popcorn! YAY! =)
and the gals decorate my room and turned it into a party room!
thanks for coming down and standing outside in the cold... i really like the sparkles!!! -) sorry to make u guys wait though!!

some of the cellies =) love u guys LOTS LOTS LOTS!!! my cell got me a music stand and beer shampoo!! yay!!! =)
ps: my room is filled with balloons!!!!
sunday night small celebration at annalakchmi! a real cool surprise!
oh man!! ur smile so fake dz!! hahaa..
and yes!!! yummylicious cheese cake with SPONGEBOB CANDLE!!!!!! =)
oohhh!! thanks u guys!! =)

and thanks u dzz!! for everything that u have done for me.. iLu!!! =)
our dinner at Moon cafe..
strawberry desert pizza!! yuuuuuummmmmmmm....

and the place has COOL SOFAS!!!! =)

no words can express my heartfelt thanks to ALL who made my 21st one of the most memorable day of my life!!

special thanks to my dzz.. U make me the happiest and luckiest person in the world! =)

2008-09-06T15:25:00.002+08:00

As Your Like It

No sooner met but they looked;
No sooner looked but they loved;
No sooner loved but they sighed;
No sooner sighed but they asked one another the reason;
No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy;

2008-09-04T23:25:00.004+08:00

i started planning the essay today. It is indeed difficult to dig out the past. Maybe that is why i feel so tired...

I thought by not having any of your information will make me hate u less, will allow me to forget you completely.. how great would it be if the human mind is like a computer, clear the trash bin and nothing remains - not a trace. I knew somehow somewhere at the back of my mind, u will never be erased. I can never know how are u doing or are u even alive in this world.. All i have are the memories i try to delete.. yes, i took a dreaded walk down memory lane today - a lane so rocky, so windy, so broken, it is hard to walk.. I am glad I no longer need to walk that way for I have found a new and better lane - a lane which hasn't has an ending. A lane of hope.

I learn something from 'The Painted Veil' today - treasure who you love, don't cry and whine only after they pass on, but feel happy that you are blessed with the beautiful memories they have left behind for you..

2008-09-04T11:23:00.002+08:00

and once again.. i fell in love with Wuthering Heights. A story read and re-read a thousand times.. never sick of the plot, the characters, the hatred yet strong love Catherine had for Heathcliff and vice versa. and yes, i am downloading the movie now..

"It would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now; so he shall never know how I love him: and that, not because he's handsome, Nelly, but because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same; and Linton's is as different as a moonbeam from lightning, or frost from fire." Catherine

2008-08-31T20:13:00.005+08:00

It started out when we heard someone says that there is a temple in Northbridge.. Having nothing better to do on a Saturday afternoon, we decide to go check it out.. never even hear of a temple here before.. curious curious.. we found out that it is a Vietnamese temple.. the designs are simple and the temple is small..

Went Peace Grove in East Perth (rich man's area) after that! peaceful, calm and beautiful place.. had fun lying on the grass and taking a short nap..

swan river... green grass... beautiful sun...
ain't this peaceful.. perfect for sleeping and having a nice picnic..

two doves. one me.. haha.. someone's missing from this pict.. =P
we tried to smile without showing our teeth.. hmm.. i still like to show my teeth..

there there.. much better.. =)
dream.. to own this place! ahha.. rich man! =)
And me.. my tai tai life!
Kings' Park spring flowers are out!! they are beautiful!!
yupz! purple flowers!! pretty aren't they..

and my sunnies boy... who.......

cooked steamed cantonese chicken for me on Friday for dinner! yummmm!!!

check it out!! nice steamed chicken drumsticks with mushroom and chinese rice wine..
and my fried egg with radish..
and the full course meal with rice!

and we went to the pancake place last week.. for a delicious meal of pancakes! has been wanting to eat there for ages!!! thanks dz!

apricot soaked in brandy and pancakes!! slurp slurp! expensive though =(

Happiness comes from the bottom of the heart
to one who looks deep enough
that shd be sufficient..

~me

2008-08-26T20:53:00.002+08:00

The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

26th August, I fulfilled the GRAND ESSENTIALS of HAPPINESS!!

something to do: Spend the whole day with dearie.. went to lunch at Leederville retro-betty and this super duper cool chillout place where we had lemon merigue and choc marquis.. played connect-4 there too.. haha.. learned some tricks (or skills from dz) then did some chores b4 coming back to study.. then went for a great dinner with Dz and we had korean food.. yummylicious.. and thanks for the treat! and and and!!! i had my half price waffle at last!!!!! HOOORAAYS! such excitments!

something to love.. hmm.. i have someone to love. haha. mushy mushhyy!

something to hope for: i know, u know, we know wad i am hoping for..

i know now why everything u do affects me so deeply.. i know now why i feel so disappointed everytime something is not right or is not going where i thought it would. ever since we got together, i have been building on a perfect image of a perfect relationship where it is filled with happiness.. i skirted all the probs becos i wanted to keep the perfect picture.. but when probs piled up, the perfect picture became soiled with arguments and anger.. castle in the air doesnt last as compared to building a real castle on the ground - firm and stable.. so now, i have to bring my castle to firm ground.. haha....

thanks for being here with me.. and thanks for staying to help me rebuild the castle..

2008-08-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

lets lets lets mambo! my first clubbing session this semester.. cool! =) with the Hampden girls and D. super cool!

2008-08-19T17:55:00.001+08:00

Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more.

get well soon..

2008-08-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

I put a snail on my palm, seeing for the first time how beautiful the snail can be.. i put it on a flower petal, realising for the first time, how pretty they look together. After sleeping through a hundred million centuries we have finally opened our eyes on a sumptuous planet, sparkling with color, bountiful with life. Within decades however we must close our eyes again. Isn’t it a noble, an enlightened way of spending our brief time in the sun, to work at understanding the universe and how we have come to wake up in it?

i wonder then, will u ever see me?

2008-08-17T01:52:00.002+08:00

this is like a degree course, filled with lectures and scoldings for every mistakes made. the student is always trying to satisfy the teacher but never getting the reward for the effort, instead, getting scolding for not trying enough.. but when the teacher praises, it is like heaven! but now, the student is no longer looking for praises, for praises never come anymore. instead, the student will look forward to more formal lectures and tutorials..

2008-08-11T13:56:00.002+08:00

at last, one thing is working - my room phone.. after 2 weeks of not being to call another and not being able to answer any calls, my phone is revived!! yay!!

and thanks mei.. for being so mature and so supportive. i miss u! =( i can so imagine your face when u receive that mail.. thanks for showing me what i failed to see and for reminding me who i am.

and thanks babes! for everything..

2008-08-10T16:50:00.001+08:00

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. Neil Gairman

We take a risk when we open our hearts because the truth is, if we open our hearts, we will get hurt. You can’t open your heart and not have some hurt because you’re in a human experience. Even if it’s the love of your life and you have many wonderful, deepening, growing, powerful years together, it’s a human experience and that person will pass over. Mary Morissey

heal me.. be my healer. i know i am healed when i forgot what hurt me... =(

2008-08-10T10:32:00.003+08:00

in one night, everything i believe in this relationship came crashing down. now there are only 2 choices left - make it or break it. i can't choose anymore so God, choose for me.. i surrender everything to You.. make this decision for me.. this shall not be what i want but what You want for me. Be my source of strength for i have none left. Carry this burden with me for i am too tired to do it alone. thank You God. Amen

Am i holding on to something which doesn't belong to me anymore? suddenly everything is wrong, everything i have done seem to be a mistake..
.
heal my heart and make it clean, show me how to love like You have loved me.

2008-08-06T20:09:00.001+08:00

What if I say you mean the world to me?
Will you laugh in my face?
Or will you take me in your arms, and promise nothing will go wrong?

2008-08-03T19:45:00.002+08:00

to care less.. talk when u want to.. i shall not hold the noose over your neck anymore.. slacken it, let u go.. that is wad i know u wan..

2008-07-29T22:49:00.002+08:00

dear God, i need your encouragement and your strength to talk to him again.. i really really need it desperately!!! i need his forgiveness and his understanding.. i need to end this stupid silent war thingy which has gone on like forever.. i must admit, i sort of miss his company.. so dear God, just give me the courage to face him all over again.. thanks You a lot!! Amen..

2008-07-24T16:06:00.002+08:00

we bought 2 beds and they are coming tmrw.. oh man! i cant wait to move in next yr... hugs babes!!

2008-07-23T11:37:00.002+08:00

it is the start of a new sem - been 1 yr since i stepped into Perth.. been 1 yr since i knew you.. thank You God for everything that u have given me, given us.

There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth in your eyes

But an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it mean this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along

There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you

But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along

Over and over
I'm filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins

And I am filled
With the sweetest devotion
As I, I look into your perfect face

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along

2008-07-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

the day i eat super a lot!!!! 10 swedish meatballs with chips and sauce, 1 slice of pizza, few pieces of wedges, 1 slice of cheesecake, a small cup of yogurt drink all in 1 hr 30 mins.. i am bursting now!! holidaying here can cause me to gain weight too! oh wells, a little comfort in not eating Singapore food...

2008-07-09T16:23:00.002+08:00

A change to my boring days in Perth - doing NOTHING everyday except to watch Tv shows, play with the kids, surf the net, eat and sleep.

Monday: Went to watch 'The Love Guru' at Belmont cinema.. dear got free tics.. haha.. must really say, i won't pay to watch this movie as it is quite brainless. BUT BUT, the movie is SERIOUSLY super duper FUNNY!! haha.. Mike Myers is really hilarious and Jessica Alba is REAL HOT!! and some of his 'teachings' are really inspiring..

After the movie, drove to Vic Park to look for makan makan.. We were still quite full from the popcorn and the drinks so we decide to walk around Vic park.. Whao! it is like really really COLDDD!! i was wearing a long sleeve and a jacket but i was shivering real hard.. decide at last to eat at a Lebanese Restaurant..
We had this lamb minced meat in a ball with salad and it is reallllly DELICIOUS! haha.. but the outer covering which is just fried dough is quite hard to chew and swallow. overall, ambiance is nice and food is GOOD!

Went to drink teh alia! wahaha.. didnt know Perth got one of my favourite hot drink!! super cool!!yupz! it is quite yummy and gingery! mmmm.. warms us up in the cold!!

Tuesday: entertained myself in the morning when dear when to school.. decide to walk to broadway to visit IGA, Kongs and all the eateries there. spent about an hr plus there. Came back to tommy and watch TV and sleep.. haha.. slacker's life!! shiok! dear came back in the afternoon and he did his work till abt 4 plus.. then we went to the BEACH!! yes yes, we went to the beach in the cold wearing shorts, t-shirt and jacket (me), 3/4 pants, t-shirt (him). We went to Swanbourne Beach which is just next to Cotts. The water is realllly freezing cold! We just stood there and let the water freeze our legs.. haha.. The sky there is amazingly beautiful! No photos though! the images will stay in our mind forever. =) took a long long walk down the beach and chat chat a lot!! walked till it was dark and there are only us at the beach!! sweet!! *scary actually when we can't really see what is in front of us*

went to NB to eat at this Shanghainese Restaurant after that.. wah wah!! the hot and spicy fish slice soup dish is DA BOMB!! sooo SPICY and sooo DELICIOUS!! we can't stop drinking the hot and spicy soup.. quite expensive though (close to 50 bucks for only 3 dishes, rice and tea).. oh wells, i will still go back for the hot and spicy fish slice soup..

after that, went back for an early night.. =)

thanks thanks dear for these 2 days. thanks for spending time with me although u are busy with work. Really muchly appreciated! =)

2008-07-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

the moment my heart stop beating for a long time. i thought this is the end of everything.. i thought u gave up.. i wanted to hang up there and then.. i dont want to talk anymore. but i dont want to give u up.. i want to fight to keep u with me.. so i talk.. my brain has stopped thinking yet i still talk- random ramblings to keep the conversation flowing.. i thought, can i fulfil that fantasy of mine to replace the crack in your heart, to make u whole again? and now i know, no matter what, i can never mend the crack.. maybe i can make it less obvious, but the crack is always there, reminding you of the hurt, the pain, the love of the past, reminding me of how much u loved her, the many things u have done for her..

i am so happy to see u yesterday, to spend a quiet night with u, to see u after a week of not seeing you, to be able to talk to u after all the phone conversations. lean on me and i will be a pillar for u. suck all the happiness out of me if that makes u happier. take all my sadness away from me if it hurts to see me sad. i will be there for u whenever u need me, that is the only promise i can give u for now..

2008-06-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

i really really really really need to learn to not lean in anymore.. any closer is just gonna cause a disaster.. it is too much, i dun think we can take it anymore.. i think it is time to learn to control my emotions.. i need you so much it hurts when i feel i dun have enough of you.. okay.. i am sorry.. i am really sorry.. i dun mean to be angry over such a small thing.. give me time.. i just need a bit of time..

on a happier note, got my new lappie.. quite funky cool.. the screen is bigger, it is heavier, it is way cooler and not so old, it doesnt make a lot of noises, it has a mac feel (cos i dl all the mac thingy)... most importantly, it is from my KOR KOR!! thanks thanks!! thanks for giving me a 'be-earlied' 21st bday present.. ooh.. 2 exams over, went crazy with rachie and ophee!! housemates housemates.. i think we need to get use to calling one another the correct name!! =) sweet housemates. love planning everything with u guys. love shopping with u guys. love doing exams with both of u beside me. love talking to the both of u. jus LOVE the BOTH OF U!!! :P... friday is coming and the PARENTS are coming to town!!! oooohhh... fun-ness...

ps: someone is leaving!! hahaha... gonna do a farewell for him... cos HE has succeeded in making ME irritated.. oh wells, he entertained me for half a semester, should do something to make HIM REMEMBER ME!! wahahahhaha... anyway, really wish u good luck in whatever u do.. hopefully u get the job u really really want.. =)

2008-06-20T15:44:00.002+08:00

2 more days!!!! =) =) =) =) not even the stupid crime can destroy my happiness!!!!

When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes
So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel

cute song by pug jelly - come home soon....

2008-06-18T19:18:00.001+08:00

i was soooo busy studying that i forgot all abt it!!! 18th 18th 18th!! thanks dearie for remembering!!! wooosh! and thanks for that *present*!! love it sooooo much!!!! comfortable u! haha.. thanks thanks thanks for doing that for me..... hugggsssss!!!!! u are gonna be back sooooon!!!!! =)

2008-06-16T13:25:00.003+08:00

i had a bad bad bad dream.. which i dun want to have again.. =( gloomy day, gloomy weather, gloomy sleep, gloomy dream.. hope your side is not as gloomy as mine..
i like this pict a lot!! thanks Laura!!! =)

2008-06-14T18:48:00.002+08:00

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I`m young
For speaking out of turn
There`s someone I`ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They`re in their own place trying to make it right
But I`m tired of justifying
So i say you`ll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
So come home
Oooh

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain`t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I`m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come home
Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh

Everything i can`t be
Is everything you should be
And that`s why i need you here
Everything i can`t be
Is everything you should be
And that`s why i need you here
So hear this now

2008-06-11T14:46:00.003+08:00

"i grown accustomed to your ways and no matter where i be it warms my heart to know that you are always here for me.."

dearie, i know msn sucks and trying to get a point across msn is not the best way of communication but 11 more days till i can see u again.. thanks for skyping with me every night.. (L) you!! =) and thanks babes for studying with me, slping over, watching tv shows, laughing, eating.. heart all of you!!

"i have learnt we share a destiny and no matter how good others may be, no one cares like u care for me... cos deep down inside, i feel u are a part of me.."
"you make me feel warm and safe and give me hope for brighter day"

2008-06-09T11:20:00.002+08:00

当你选择了云的距离
就这么自私做个决定
冲破天际飞去
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
也许无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋

i remembered i heard this song with you in Eutopia.. both of us really like this song so much that we started to sing despite hearing it for the first time.. i heard this song again today. reminds me of you... awww.. i miss u!!!!

2008-06-05T01:24:00.002+08:00

i will be strong - for u and for myself.. sorry for being so emo-ish.. luckily u are not emo-ish if not there will be 2 water taps flowing.. hee.. thanks for spending time with me even though u got presentation due on fri.. jia you with the presentation dear!! dun be too stress out by it... after fri u can really really go back and REST!! to prepare yourself for the next stretch!! hee.. happy for u..

and erm erm erm erm.. enuf of emo-ish...happier topic - KOR KOR!!! thanks for the early 21st bday present.. and apparently mummy agrees to the present.. haha.. cant wait for it to arrive.. HUGSSS!! Thanks for reading my mind with regards to what i want.. hahaha..

BABE!! me is sooo happy for u!!! cant contain my excitments!!! and we are sooo happy today becos ............ (i will tell when everything's confirm)! hahaha... exclusive eh..

extreme sets of emotions running thru me.. sadness and happiness.. only the winner gets to dominate my body for the next 2 weeks.. i wan happiness to win so God, pls pls pls, help me with that... i need Your strength!!