August 30, 2007

i received bad news from singapore... it left me completely speechless and stunned.. suddenly i remember his crappiness.. all his lame jokes and how he used to disturb everyone in class.. how we used to train together for drills with all the uniform grps.. how he is always so happy go lucky and smiley and how he always make sure that ppl ard him are happy.. suddenly an unexpected msn message, "XXXXX passed on on 27 Aug. Go check out his friendster for the tributes". I was already shocked when i saw the msg.. When i saw all the tributes, i cried.. I do not know the reason why he committed suicide... But if i had the chance to talk with him again, i will want to tell him that in this world, no matter how much troubles u have or any obstacles that u faced, there are still people who love u a lot.. think of ur family, ur friends, everyone who left tributes for u, everyone who are sad to see u go.. u are not alone walking in this world, u have ppl who really cared abt u and really loved u... u have ended ur own suffering but ur ending is the start of the suffering for ppl who love u..

i am so sorry i can't attend ur wake.. truely and sincerely i would wan to but i am overseas.. i can only hope that u will be happy wherever u are and that u are missed by so many ppl here.. i hope u rest in peace.. u are a gd gd friend to me and u make my secondary school days so fun.. rest in peace and be with god..

1:34 PM

August 29, 2007

picts picts!! of our heavens (yes cows??) and also of my chilling night (on a tues, thanks to arthur and we didn't get to eat the hotdogs and have the free drinks, well, i am looking forward to eating the hotdogs more than the drinks though)

me and pam went to the medicine common room to study and guess wad we found!! hahaha.. the sofa is filled with bread and donuts and scorns and lots more!!! of cos, being true blue singaporeans, we are like WAH WAH WAH!! MUS TAKE!!! The funniest part is when we called Priya to come and see!! wahahahaha..

look at the 2 cows or monkeys and their greedy expressions!! hahahaa...

me and arthur at leeterville. haha.. dunno how to spell that place's name.. but it is a place where u can chill and meet people.. i met a crazy guy and a guy named john from New Zealand who spoke so close to my ear that arthur says he is going to clean my ear from ear-wax.. which is superly gross!!! anyway, the songs there difficult to dance ah.. we did stupid dance actions which dun fit the song.. but damn fun!! hahha.. got pretty gals!! (right guys!!)

me arthur and sheng.. thanks to this unknown angmoh guy who took the pict for us!! fun fun but super tiring..jump up and down till i damn tired.. anyway, hotdogs guys!!i wan the hotdogs!! hahahaha...

oh yah.. went running with pam and am.. in Matilda Bay in the evening 6 30pm!! it was like damn freaking dark man.. not to say cold and rainy! but gd exercise.. now we got muscle aches.. thanks to Pam out PT instructor!!!

8:00 PM

August 28, 2007

seriously can't study in my room!! too many distractions.. yesterday me pam and priya was in the meds common room till like 2am!! woohoo.. 10pm till 2am.. and it was really constructive work done!!! mus go lib more often le.. hahaha. oooohh.. none of u can guess wad we found in the med common room!!hahaa.. all of us are in heaven-well, in shocked first b4 we went to heaven.. hee hee.. so fun!! now we got a whole collection of colourful food!!

11:05 AM

August 26, 2007

"i am jus going to drive".. "ok, and i will just sleep k".. this is how sweet someone can be.. to drive continuously for 4 hrs while i slept thru the whole journey, waking up only when we reached.

to sit on a breakwater with no one beside me, freezing and shivering in the cold cold wing, listening to the waves crashing against the breakwater, the perfect getaway. yes, and u, my bored companion.. haha.. thanks for just being here for me.

9:24 PM

August 24, 2007

Internet in hostel down for almost 1 whole night.. and i now know i superly cannot survive without the internet.. but at least i got some work done!!hahaa.. advantages and disadvantages of having the internet!! going swimming tmr.. shiok shiok shiok!! haven swim ever since i came here- time to stretch every muscles!!!

weekend getaway or yabbies and mini Olympics? hard choice to make. yes, i am being indecisive!!!

1:06 AM

August 22, 2007

To my darling rabbit,
I dunno why i brought u here in the first place. with my hand luggage and luggage full.but i look into your eyes and i know you still want to be with me.. I didn't make the wrong choice. Ever since i gotta you when i was 7, you never leave my side. You are always standing up looking at me and hear me rant abt all my troubles.You never talk to me but ur smile and looks are enuf to comfort me. You are always sleeping next to me but i always snatch the blanket away from you, but u never grumble or leave me.I wake up in the morning and i still see you smiling so sweetly.I made a pact with you that no matter what happens to me, i will still smile sweetly. You saw me cry countless of times over lots and lots of incidents, you saw how i gave up on myself and be someone else, you saw me inflicting pain on myself,you saw me change for the better,you saw me picking myself up,you saw me eating healthily, you saw me thru all my ups and downs. Both of us thought i will leave all my troubles back home and have a fresh start here, but apparently, this is not the case. Again, i have to let u see me cry. But i am always comforted to have you here with me.. to silently cheer me on with your never fading smile.. I am always glad you are here, to listen to all my troubles. I am just glad i brought you with me.. I am just glad to have you by my side.. you are my role model - to be able to stand strong and firm no matter what happen and to be able to smile no matter how sad you are. Thank you.Thank you

10:11 AM

August 21, 2007

I jus want to close my eyes and sleep and never wake up again. why am i hurting people again and again? no amt of water can wash away the guilt i am feeling.. AHHHHH!!! i need to sweat it out but i am having flu.. all my thoughts can't get out from my head... hopefully this Sat's trip down to balcatta will straighten out some of my thoughts.. i dun wan to mess up ppl's life and my life again... GO AWAY TROUBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:25 AM

August 19, 2007

spring is on the way!! gd gd.. looking forward to sept!!!

5:45 PM

August 18, 2007

happy 21st bday gary!!! so sad i can't go to ur chalet!!ahhhhhh.... i am missing out on the good food and the fun and laughter!! well well.. and xian qin has to really butt in to remind me all that i am missing out.. anyway, enjoy urself on ur 21st bday!and may ur wishes all come true!!!!-)

10:47 AM

August 15, 2007

Cam-whoring while waiting for the food to come.. hahaha..

Tim, me,Sheng and lynette!!

the rose among the thorns!!! Tim,SHeng,Lynette and Jason!!

our wadever pose!!hahha.. in hawker cuisine while waiting for our food!!!

me and lynette with our large waffles with double chocolate and choc chip... yummy!!!

gelare!! and there is more waffles and ice cream on the way!! hahahahha...

yes yes, when we are hungry, love will keep us alive!!=) hahaha...

12:47 PM

August 13, 2007

masquerade ball!had so much fun there- meeting new people, taking picts and just having so much fun!!! here are some picts. ohoh.. weather that day is superly gd in the afternoon but superly cold at night!!hee hee

Andrew and me!!

me and my neighbour (boyfriend?) Pammmmy!!hahha.. superly fun gal..

the guy with the funniest mask!!hahahha..

andrew,rachel,calvin and me.

me and rachel!!

me and Janan..

Okay.. there are actually a lot more but i am superly lazy to put them up.. maybe next time ba.. hahhaa..

anyway, went to meet Grace and Uncle for dinner.. I was seriously so tired that i fell aslp after i came back from church and slept thru my alarm at 5pm all the way till 5 45pm.. was suppose to meet Grace at 6 20..hahahha..rush like mad only!! And I think i am seriously having short term memory loss.. cos i can't remember which is esplanade bus port and which is wellington bus port.. so i alighted at the first bus port and walked around trying to see which bus port is that.. the scariest thing was, there is like no one there... so i just kept walking till i saw the sign "esplanade bus port information counter"hahha.. safe safe!!! anyway, we went to this indian restaurant near the Bell Tower. This indian restaurant is special cos u pay wad u think is worth.. and it is like a buffet style kind in which u eat to ur heart's content and u pay wad u think is worth.. the taste a bit weird though but quite nice.. Grace ate quite a lot and Uncle was like surprise.. and i was like trying to suppress my cough all night.. so xin ku!!

after dinner, went back to hostel and played pictionary with some hostel friends.. was superly fun!!=)

12:44 AM

August 8, 2007

Do not be afraid, I am with you.
I have called you each by name.
Come and follow me
I will bring you home;
I love you and you are mine.

A song that brings tears to my eyes!! I am super in love with this song now!!!=)

3:38 PM

August 7, 2007

The greatest love of all=) the memory will carry on.....

10:52 PM

August 6, 2007

the storm is over.. everthin is going to be more peaceful now..

lookin forward to masquerade!! rachel and i are getting so excited over it.. it is like prom all over again!

4:05 PM

woohoo.. formal dinner!! the night of madness and fun!! and of cos brain cells dead from trying to recall ppl's name.. oh yah.. apparently i am not able to recognise and remember ppl's name here.. so now i am still at the stage of doing that... okay. the details of the mad night!! hmmm.. it started out well with Mass (and i am in the choir) and then dinner.. both of which are peaceful (except i "killed" someone which is very unfortunate)... after dinner is the normal cam whoring session except here, guys are more cam whore than girls.. hahahha. ok la.. they are not cam-whores, they jus wan to keep some memory!! hahaha..but they can really come out with weird poses for the camera.. then we left the dining hall and was thinking where to go next when someone told us that there is a gd "show" somewhere so we jus follow the crowd.. and it happens that someone is going to be thrown into the duck pond at UWA!! hahahaha.. that person is sheng!! hahahaha.. he was like thrown into a smelly duck pond (with like duck shit inside) and he says that it is smelly!! hahahaha.. anyway, another person,John,willingly did a skinny dip at the duck pond and swam 2 laps!! and it is like freaking cold!!! after the whole incident, we walked back to the hostel so that Sheng could bath.. then we proceed to north bridge at abt 11 plus.. haha.. we went to The Shed and had fun there... thanks to the guys who went and who really protect us.. and thanks to Arthur who drove all the gals back and the poor guys have to wait for cab in the cold.. hee hee.. had a great time!! really enjoy myself.. but i only slept for 3 hrs b4 waking up at 7am for church!! hahahahahaha=)

12:11 AM