1. Being questioned when you yourself do not understand.
2. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about.
3. Trying to forget something you never will.
4. Admitting you were wrong after being so insistent that you were right.
5. Debating with yourself.
6. Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be.
7. Trying to understand when you just can’t.
8. Realizing that you’ve been tricked after you’ve given your whole heart.
9. Parting and letting go of someone you’ve loved.
how true....
1:30 PM
The weather changes suddenly - the sky seems overcast and the wind is getting stronger. So in tune with my mood. At least I am not alone..
10:15 AM
February 22, 2009
1 week. wasn't that bad. Got to drive a Lexus (my fav car brand) for 2 days b4 the owner came back. subi for grocery, burswood for outdoor movie night, church, airport to pick the owner - thank God the girls are all safe! =). Went NB for supper once at Hawker - miss the marmite chicken a lot now. Had a picnic at the grass patch near to the High Court - wine, grapes, sushi, salad - but mood spoiled by that !@#$% random guy. Watched He's just not that into you at Picaadily Cinema and had a frightening experience coming home by bus at 9pm. Went down to Margaret River for wine in the morning and drove back to Concuss for dinner. Went to Freo for Little Creature and sight seeing. Sat thru a graduation without falling asleep. Almost pierced another ear hole in the city but.... Watching an emo Japan drama and loving it. Preoccupying my brains with random thoughts. Unpacking my stuff - table's not here yet though. Met some new peeps - time to do so after being anti-social for a year. Hating the weather most of the time but happy when there is wind. Getting tanner by the hour. Talking to the devil everyday thru skype from the minute I wake up - missing her lots here - come quick come quick - and good luck, u can do it! And b4 I knew it, school is starting tmr. I am glad school is starting.
8:23 PM
February 19, 2009
Rule no 1: never make excuses for the man u like..
And I am currently stuck to the book 'He is just not that into you'.. It is educational in a way for girls. The movie is touching, emo at the same time.. make me think a lot - maybe a bit too much..
Will you make me your exception if I am the rule?
10:11 AM
February 11, 2009
Your head on my lap, burning sun, sweaty palms, sandwiched filled stomach, swishing waves, voiceless, noiseless, calm breathing, in out in out, spiderwebs, amphibious being my favourite word of the day, cute little squirrels hopping and jumping around, silly teasing, frighten moments, more spiders and webs - a day to remember. sunrise, sunset, days pass too fast for my liking. Soon, too soon.
10:36 PM
February 9, 2009
I got BURNT - in Sentosa! painful and itchy.. BUT I had fun.. 12 hrs of fun! =) going to beaches, taking picts, eating, drinking, tanning, talking, swimming, skytrain, tram, song of the sea.. enjoyed every minute, every conversation and every moment of silence. Time passes fast when we are happy and enjoying ourselves. Back to Perth this Sat.. Somehow, this time, it is gonna be really tough.. I just wish that the time could just stop when we are together and there will be no need to say goodbye, to have to be away from each other and to miss you. Sometimes I feel that it is seriously getting a bit too tiring for me to handle.. -(
sigh.. 3 weeks then, 5 weeks now, more to come in the future?dampened.
11:46 PM
February 4, 2009
'I am out of practice' was my thought when I started to panicked upon stepping into the school.. The weather was not helping - it started to storm the moment I reached the gate. Frantic parents, big and wet umbrellas, screaming and shouting teachers and students. Chaos. All hell broke loose when the kids started running out, charging at everyone. All of them look alike to me - blurred faces. I tip-toed, hoping to spot you among the mess of human faces. I remembered how I used to stand all the way at the back of all parents, confident that I could scan out your face among the crowds. Slowly, the crowds start to thin as many left when they got their kids. I panicked, wondering whether did I miss you, will you be waiting for me in the rain.. Just when my thoughts were all flying out of place, I felt your little hand, holding on to mine and I heard your voice, 'Jie jie, I am here.' I saw your cheeky smile flashing up at me and I just want to hug you tight - to thank you for searching for me when you knew I am out of practice.
10:37 PM
February 1, 2009
I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.
12:04 PM
It's Me
Cynthia Xie Xingjia
22 and growing up
Virgo
viola and piano
traveling around
being happy
family and friends
knowing You
