September 30, 2007

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

11:17 PM

thanks for letting me be myself and not shooting me weird glances every time i become crazy and say stupid stuffs. "everything u do is beautiful"

6:27 PM

it seems to run in the family.. we got hurt but we never learn... we hurt people but we never learn too.. we never listen.. i guess we are too headstrong.. we want to challenge fate but fate seems to always play tricks on us. why is it always the both of us?! we should stop doing it but we can't help it.. another tragedy in the family, but i understand ur pain.. dun learn from us sting!

6:22 PM

what will u do if a guy sings this song to u?

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

i cried but i know that u understand why i cried. too many issues.we are two angry people. too many fights and too many tears.

6:20 PM

September 25, 2007

photos of our trip to the beach last week.. at last, got the picts from pammy.. here goes. cam whore women!!!

ophe and me!! back view and cheers to the sea!

okay.. sun tan also can cam whore..

kissable..

1:36 PM

thanks ******!!! really brighten up my day and my room!! but i got no vase so got to plant it in my water bottle.. haha.. thanks for giving this to me!!

ps: Pam says it is going to die soon!! hope it wun!!!!!

12:24 AM

September 23, 2007

tired of not being able to sleep. the ultimate weapon of all time----little little white things.. 3 shd do the trick. my life doesn't belong to me so i wun be able to anyhow waste it, dun worry.. i jus need help now.. there is a side of me that i want to keep it hidden but it seems to be coming back.. no.. i just need to slp for that one day... hopefully i can wake up for my 10am class tmr!

5:36 PM

i am tired but i can't sleep.. slept at 6am on sat morning and woke up at 9am to go with py and family to the Egyptian Exhibition.. thanks shi fu for keeping ur du mei company the whole night and watching the sun rise though we are at different places.. well, sat was still not that bad.. rather quiet which is the first thing py picked up on and she is concern abt me.. tried her best to make me happy the whole day though her kids are getting on her nerves.. thanks for that and sry for jus walking by myself most of the time.. back in my hostel room is bad.. jus bad.. stared at the computer screen but dunno wad to do... lie on the bed and toss and turn ard but can't slp.. so decide to take a walk to Mat Bay. the nice sun, the nice walk, saw a marriage taking place, decides to walk back, oh yah, and the funny and random person who accompanied me on this walk. cook at night, went out to blow wind with daniel and friends (they ate ice cream though.i jus go and eat wind). i jus wan the day to faster pass and the night to come so i can sleep.. but when night comes, i realise that i can't slp again.. toss and turn toss and turn. walk ard, jump ard, listen to music, chat with people, fold my clothes, count my clothes, look ard, open my window,close my window. the number of things i do in that so long night. but at 4am, i realise i am not the only one who can't slp.. thanks for calling me and talking to me and telling me things abt urself which i never knew. we tok till 5 plus and he told me to go slp cos i got to go church early. and i woke up at 8 10 (shit, late!!!! Daniel is picking me up for church at 8am!!! luckily persis called me). it is another long day to endure!!!

i have many bubbles of troubles that i am suffocating. Let them go with God says the pastor and my tears start to fall. Why isn't God taking away all my bubbles of troubles then?

why is my lights off when i wake up when i didn't off it when i go to slp? okay. i am scaring myself

11:42 AM

i miss u so much that it starts to hurt a lot. the constant longing to have u near. the constant tugging of my heart when i see couples holding hands or hugging each other. the tears and frustrations when i tried to call u and realise tat u are no longer there.. the stupidity of lookin at ur msn hoping that u faster come online.. seriously, i am in the stage of reminiscing now.. all of u and wad u have done or have not done.

2:57 AM

September 22, 2007

time to think and act. i hate it when people gossip.. it makes my life so miserable and of cos the other party's life too.. dun really understand what is so difficult to ask people things up front.. wad is the use of talking behind ppl's back and blowing things out of proportion.. if u wan to know the true story, why dun u jus come to my face and ask me.. i will tell u everything man.. EVERYTHING that u wan and wishes to hear.... yah... i agree with ******, it is show time.. u guys force me into this.. i dun like being the bad person, but u have hurt enuf ppl.. THE END!! it is THE END!!!

i tell myself to be strong but in the end, i still scream and cry in my room (sry darling pam for having to witness me breaking down.and thanks for pulling me up). this is the 2nd time this happen.. i am tired and sick of this whole thing. i jus want to end everything.. just not to bother abt anything.sometimes i just wish that i can disappear..... back to how i use to treat myself?it is tempting to do it but i dun wan to hurt myself and the people who care abt me.. but it is really tempting.. one more push, jus one more little push, i might do something no one will expect..

WHERE ARE U WHEN I NEED U???!!!!! i am so accustomed to u solving every of my prob that somehow i feel so crippled without u.argggg.. why do i have to depend on u for everything?!! that is so irritating!! argggg.. i am so damn freakingly irritated!!argggggg.. scream scream scream scream scream!!!!!!!!! i can't slp!!!! i am tired but i can't slp!!!!

2:21 AM

September 20, 2007

okie.. this week i went to the beach twice!!!! the weather too good to resist.. anyway, i will upload picts of the second beach outing first cos the first outing some picts are with pamela dear!! ahah.. the second time i went with daniel north and we are in the water for 2 hrs..

oooohh.. love the waves!!!!

the little seaweed in my hair!! hawaii!!!!

lots of seaweed in his hair!!! hahahaha.. so funky!

the beach is filled with seaweeds!!!!!! help!!!!!

we can cam whore even in the sea where the waves are threatening to carry us away!!!

we are so wet!!! hahahahaha.. (daniel says his eyes are scary!!!)

the beach is not that calm!!! trust me!!! hahahahaha...

But this beautiful day did not end well.. i am sick of being the bad person.

9:35 PM

u force me to do this. dun regret when i have done it. there are some things i dun wan to do but i know if i dun hurt u now, i will hurt u eventually.

8:48 PM

September 19, 2007

oopps!! read something which i think i am not suppose to!! kept me curious about that conversation for the whole night.. hmmmm... as to what have i read, it is a secret!! wahahaha.. i am so bad!

anyway, went KTV at such random time at such random day.. such random decision but i had fun! sing sing sing sing!!! met a new friend too!! and she knows my cousin Grace-they stay in same hostel in Erica Underwood.. oh man!! such small world again!!! anywayz, nice knowing her though!! we gotta go out shopping soon!

10:14 AM

September 16, 2007

To dance with someone u loved in the middle of the night in the middle of the road.. to lie with someone u love in the big field, looking at the stars, talking the whole night.. simple actions, simple feelings, complicated society.. wad if the gal is from a rich family and the guy is from a simple family? so.. does all princesses have fairytale ending? never in reality.

3:03 PM

September 8, 2007

oh man!!! i enjoyed my bday!!! haha.. okok.. a long list of people to thanks though:

1) thanks Ken for the purple bear!
2) thanks Rachel for the nice drawing and the nice brownies and cookies.. they are yummy! and i hang up your drawing in my room!!
3) thanks stingray for the nice slides!! love them lots lots!!
4) thanks Sheng, Tim, Jason and Lynette for the Iron Fairies
5) thanks cell peeps for the cake and the celebration!! oh yah.. thanks sheng and ophe for getting the cake!! it is delicious!!! and thanks peeps for the nicely drawn card!! i pin it on my wall too
6) thanks Melvin for the nice blue purse!!! useful for putting coins!!! really love it!!
7) thanks K blockers for the Ferrero Rocher!!
8) thanks choops and Anthony for going around video-ing people who signed my card and their well wishes!!! i enjoyed watching the videos!
9) thanks everyone for their well wishes!!! really appreciated them!
10) thanks Evelyn for calling from Melb jus to wish me a happy bday!!! so cool!! hahahaa..
11) thanks rachel and Jin for buying me the handbag!! although is i choose one but still, thanks a lot!! it is the thought that counts!!
12) thanks kenneth for calling to wish me happy bday!! so sweet of u!!

whewww!!! so fun!! haha... thanks everyone!!!

2:06 AM

September 7, 2007

hitting the big 2!! with a 0 at the back. haha.. so ironic!

12:50 PM

September 5, 2007

we went to the beach!! cottlesloe!! super nice weather that day! hahahaha... here are some of the picts!!

12:47 AM

September 2, 2007

happy fathers' day to all the daddy in Australia.. and of cos to Honglin!haha.. happy fathers' day! thanks for taking me out to eat Dim Sum.. and after Dim Sum to run and exercise in Matilda's Bay. oh yah.. i am heads over heels in love with the cutest guy on earth!!

u are seriously the cutest guy ever!! i will let u catch me more next time!

me and ken!! a great day for a run...

he is posing in front of Emma Dim Sum.. cos we waited quite long to be let into the restaurant..

2:59 PM

September 1, 2007

ADRENALINE!!! woohoo.. had so so so much fun!! SWITCHFOOT!! okok.. the things i do everytime i am having fun- PICTURES!!! ahahahha..

"art-tea"and sheng..

Me and evelyn!! she went melb for hol le and will only come back on 8 sept when i am flying over to melb!! haahaha.. me arthur and sheng decide to send her to the airport super early in the morning.. so after adrenaline and eating ice cream, we send her back to pack whereas we went arthur's room to watch movie. after she is done with her packing, we went for supper at Singapore Chinatown restaurant where we had honey beef again!!! so nice nice!!! then we talk cock and drink tea till like 3 30am and decides to make a move to the airport. i was trying to keep myself awake and to talk to arthur cos he is driving and he is slpy le.. then clever me happily asked a question, "eh, international airport and domestic airport is at the same place ah?" and everyone was like, OH NO!! Arthur, turn back, wrong le wrong le.. hahaha. so we reached the airport like ard 4 plus and we decide to slp.. hahaha.. too tired eyes cannot open le.. we literally slept till 5 plus.. oh yah.. the weather is so damn cold that the windscreen and windows of the car is foggy when we woke up!!! eve and sheng decides to play tic tac toe on the windows while me and arthur jus continue slping or try to sleep.. we left the airport only after 5 45 and reach hostel at 6 plus.. i hit the bed immediately man.

cam whoring as usual! haha...

loving u guys!!!! jump jump,push push, step step, scream scream,groove groove!!!!

11:24 AM