September 23, 2007
i am tired but i can't sleep.. slept at 6am on sat morning and woke up at 9am to go with py and family to the Egyptian Exhibition.. thanks shi fu for keeping ur du mei company the whole night and watching the sun rise though we are at different places.. well, sat was still not that bad.. rather quiet which is the first thing py picked up on and she is concern abt me.. tried her best to make me happy the whole day though her kids are getting on her nerves.. thanks for that and sry for jus walking by myself most of the time.. back in my hostel room is bad.. jus bad.. stared at the computer screen but dunno wad to do... lie on the bed and toss and turn ard but can't slp.. so decide to take a walk to Mat Bay. the nice sun, the nice walk, saw a marriage taking place, decides to walk back, oh yah, and the funny and random person who accompanied me on this walk. cook at night, went out to blow wind with daniel and friends (they ate ice cream though.i jus go and eat wind). i jus wan the day to faster pass and the night to come so i can sleep.. but when night comes, i realise that i can't slp again.. toss and turn toss and turn. walk ard, jump ard, listen to music, chat with people, fold my clothes, count my clothes, look ard, open my window,close my window. the number of things i do in that so long night. but at 4am, i realise i am not the only one who can't slp.. thanks for calling me and talking to me and telling me things abt urself which i never knew. we tok till 5 plus and he told me to go slp cos i got to go church early. and i woke up at 8 10 (shit, late!!!! Daniel is picking me up for church at 8am!!! luckily persis called me). it is another long day to endure!!!
i have many bubbles of troubles that i am suffocating. Let them go with God says the pastor and my tears start to fall. Why isn't God taking away all my bubbles of troubles then?
why is my lights off when i wake up when i didn't off it when i go to slp? okay. i am scaring myself
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