September 22, 2007
time to think and act. i hate it when people gossip.. it makes my life so miserable and of cos the other party's life too.. dun really understand what is so difficult to ask people things up front.. wad is the use of talking behind ppl's back and blowing things out of proportion.. if u wan to know the true story, why dun u jus come to my face and ask me.. i will tell u everything man.. EVERYTHING that u wan and wishes to hear.... yah... i agree with ******, it is show time.. u guys force me into this.. i dun like being the bad person, but u have hurt enuf ppl.. THE END!! it is THE END!!!
i tell myself to be strong but in the end, i still scream and cry in my room (sry darling pam for having to witness me breaking down.and thanks for pulling me up). this is the 2nd time this happen.. i am tired and sick of this whole thing. i jus want to end everything.. just not to bother abt anything.sometimes i just wish that i can disappear..... back to how i use to treat myself?it is tempting to do it but i dun wan to hurt myself and the people who care abt me.. but it is really tempting.. one more push, jus one more little push, i might do something no one will expect..
WHERE ARE U WHEN I NEED U???!!!!! i am so accustomed to u solving every of my prob that somehow i feel so crippled without u.argggg.. why do i have to depend on u for everything?!! that is so irritating!! argggg.. i am so damn freakingly irritated!!argggggg.. scream scream scream scream scream!!!!!!!!! i can't slp!!!! i am tired but i can't slp!!!!
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