November 9, 2007
dunno why am i so depressed.. called mummy 2 hrs b4 the start of my papers and cry on the phone while talkin to her.. told her a lot of things and she gave me lots of advice... i realise that i haven even started talking when my tears started to drop and it was uncontrollable from then on.. was rather tired after crying and talking to her... wanted to take a nap but cant seem to slp.. i keep asking myself, how can i be so emotionally dependent on him when we are only together for 1 month (2 months of being friends though).. i am not someone who clings on to the bf and stick to him, but today when he left, he left an empty feeling in me.. i cant eat, cant slp, cant concentrate and cant do lots of things.. and that empty feeling swelled when i talk to mummy, telling her everything... i am feeling lots better now though.. wonder how is he back in spore with the HUGE task that was entrusted to him... hope he is holding on strong, praying very hard for him and for myself.. well, 8 more days!!! and time is passing too slowly for my liking.. arggggg.. cant stand myself for being sooo weak!!!
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