September 4, 2008
i started planning the essay today. It is indeed difficult to dig out the past. Maybe that is why i feel so tired...
I thought by not having any of your information will make me hate u less, will allow me to forget you completely.. how great would it be if the human mind is like a computer, clear the trash bin and nothing remains - not a trace. I knew somehow somewhere at the back of my mind, u will never be erased. I can never know how are u doing or are u even alive in this world.. All i have are the memories i try to delete.. yes, i took a dreaded walk down memory lane today - a lane so rocky, so windy, so broken, it is hard to walk.. I am glad I no longer need to walk that way for I have found a new and better lane - a lane which hasn't has an ending. A lane of hope.
I learn something from 'The Painted Veil' today - treasure who you love, don't cry and whine only after they pass on, but feel happy that you are blessed with the beautiful memories they have left behind for you..
11:25 PM
