This caught my eyes - it was my feelings then but we grow up. Both of us will grow up and out of it.....
The silent way people drift apart, the way the secret smiles fade. The fights end in crying with no one to hold you. the way your world seems to collapse, but you know this isn’t the way its supposed to be.
YELLING AT HIM TO FIX IT. even though you know you did more damage than he did.
After the break up, the feeling of betray as you look at another guy. Knowing you shouldn’t be looking, you don’t belong to them. knowing he still doesn’t look at anyone but you.
When you hang out, the way his eyes watch yours,the way they say sorry, the way you know he wants to kiss you and make all the pain go away. Trying your hardest not to cry because he refuses to become a couple together.
Being completely in love with him. and him with you.
Being best friends.
Him thinking he is not good enough, so he wants you to find someone that is.
You refusing to find someone else because you want him.
The complications. The tears. The heartache.
The feeling of love through it all.
And just sometimes....
And so i wonder if you do still think about me. And so i wonder if you do still love me inside somewhere. And so i wonder if there will ever be another chance for us to tie the knot and never let go. And so i wonder. And so i wonder.
I never got the chance to say thank you. I know I'll never be given the chance to apologize even though I've apologized millions of times (i assure you i can apologize a million more just for you. let me apologize. I don't want to carry this burden anymore). i don't think i'll ever have the chance to do so. wherever you are. i hope sooner or later maybe someday,everything will be okay again.
3:23 PM
It's Me
Cynthia Xie Xingjia
22 and growing up
Virgo
viola and piano
traveling around
being happy
family and friends
knowing You
